I found myself walking on the beach being mesmerized by the moonlight. Mesmerized might be an understatement I was downright hypnotized. I couldn’t take my eyes off of the light, wandering towards it until the waves were tickling my toes (yup I was wearing flip flops, spring has finally sprung). I wondered how the ocean can be loud and peaceful all at once. It sounded liked people talking at the same time through a hurricane but somehow it felt like home.
I realized if I don’t succeed then I need to redefine success. I often give myself 2 options, either Steve gets better or he gets worse. That only leaves me with a 50% success rate but if I redefine accomplishment to say I will remain positive and take everything in stride no matter what then I’ll forever be successful.
We left the house today and took a trip to the mall. Steve was in incredible pain but pushed through in order to feel like a functioning part of society. The perusing was great, the stitches holding his tube ripping out, not so great. He has an appointment for a CAT scan this week so we’ll see what the Dr. has to say about this hindrance. All in all I feel very positive about the past week. Steve has been eating very well, sleeping through the night and has more color in his face. That glass is remaining half full, and that’s all I have to say about that.
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